Hey guys ^^!

I know that this is a kinda unexpected post, although I decided to make it because I used to have performance issues on my gaming laptop and managed to find out few things which can help to boost performance to maximum, so let's start!

1. Download and run CCleaner to get rid of some unnecessary junk in your pc- run first two options (Cleaner + Registry). Check also Tools-> Uninstall and remove any programs which you never/ rarely use. Never uninstall stuff from Intel or any Microsoft components you are unsure of!

2. Open task manager (ctrl+alt+del) and check what apps are you running after the start. If you see things which are unnecessary (like Skype, discord or any other programs you have installed and are sure that are useless to start after you boot your pc) simply disable them by right click + disable.

3. Download some antivirus like Avast/Avira/AVG and run it. After that, you can also run Adware Removal Tool or Malwarebytes.

4.  Type msconfig into the search box - choose selective startup and check first two options -> process to boot-> check no GUI boot-> set timeout to 3 or 4 seconds -> advanced options -> a select number of processors and choose maximum + maximum memory. This will help a lot with fastening boot up. 

5. Select properties of icon "This PC" -> advanced system settings -> advanced -> performance -> settings -> adjust for best performance (now there are some effects I personally still keep so it doesn't look so dull and that's thumbnail previews, smooth edges of screen fonts and show windows when dragging). 

6. Download Advanced System Care and run it. This one is my favorite program which can boost performance a lot by optimizing the system in many different ways (from HDD to boot up any many more). Also, don't forget to check TURBO boost (automatically freeing RAM). 

7. Defrag your pc. My fav program is Defraggler. Defragmentation is a process that reduces the amount of fragmentation. It does this by physically organizing the contents of the mass storage device used to store files into the smallest number of contiguous regions (fragments). So basically one program/file whatever is stored in different places of HDD and Defraggler will put it to the right place so it's faster to open etc.

8. Download Driver Booster and run it. This is a huge boost because the majority of people don't update their drivers. You can also check drivers for your PC on a website of your computer company.

9. Type regedit into the search box. Go to hkey current user -> control panel -> mouse -> mousehovertime (change value to 10). After that click on desktop folder-> mouseshowdelay (change to 10 and okay).

10. Type prefetch into the search box and delete all content inside. The same goes for %appdata% -> go to appdata-> local -> temp and delete all of them. 

11. Type services into search box -> disable superfetch and also disable all xbox features. After that disable also dmwappushsvc service. 

12. Click on windows logo on screen -> settings. 
Disable absolutely all things in privacy settings. Set feedback and diagnostics to basic and set never send Microsoft data. 
Disable all notifications in System/notifications. 
When it comes to Xbox I usually disable all features, but this one is optional because for some people it can increase gaming performance and for some decrease. 
When it comes to Personalization disable transparency in Color option. 

13. Right click on battery icon-> power plan -> set it to high performance. 

14. Don't forget to run your games on your NVIDIA/AMD card (right click on the game icon and check if you are running with Nvidia/AMD graphics processor). 

15. Don't forget to also check the files you downloaded and get rid of all things you no longer need. 

I think that's all I can think of right now ^^ hope it helps to someone!

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So, first ... I want to say that if I was a healthy person and didn't have a horrible infection which didn't react to any medication I would never undergo it. Yes, it's really, really hard, mainly if you are a food lover. Fasting basically means to give up all food and juices/teas as well and drink only water. I drank mainly normal water (not distilled one as recommended, quality of water is good here).

Sometimes doctors are unable to treat chronic illnesses - they just fail and have nothing more to do (my case). They sent you back home with almost no recommendation on what to do. I refused to give up and decided to treat myself through fasting + elixir of life (and everyone who read Malakhov: Manual of Fasting) will know what I am talking about. If you are interested look it up. I wasn't sure about what it can change and if I even am gonna make it through 7 days with no food intake. But hey, I was in such devastated state all months before on pills and nothing worked - culture tests were showing massive infection and the pain I was experiencing was unreal.

To my surprise, the first days were worst (first 4). As the acidic state of my body was increasing, I started to feel weak and dizzy; I smelled like acetone (due to acidity and acidic crisis at 4-6 days when it had spike). It was a horrible experience because the hunger for me stopped after 4 days but during the first days, I was literally starving. I felt so weak during whole therapy that I managed to do yoga just once and otherwise, was like a living corpse - also I slept like 12hours or more. But I'm not complaining, I know my body started healing process right ahead. I felt it.

Fasting basically works on principle on autolysis - it just gets rid of what is pathogenic over healthy tissues and focuses all energy (which is normally 80% invested on food) to repair the damage done in the body. And yes, the body is full of toxins. Also, there is acidic crisis spike (first in my case was I think 4th day). This acidic crisis is the highest level of acidity in the body and it leads to worsening of my symptoms (temporary state). Body is normally alkaline, although like this it's a lot easier to get rid of infections, parasites and damaged tissues and toxins too. I don't need much scientific proof because I am living proof that this is working (at least for me it worked, I believe it can work for others too).

What fasting did for me? First of all - I didn't know whether I have infection or no, because I still am recovering from some after-symptoms (which aren't so severe), I just knew it helped for other things first - I felt weak but also I noticed after seven days that I have no more eczema on body - it disappeared, rashes on hands were totally clean, dry skin was repaired. Blood pressure got fixed to perfect state although my pulse was around 100+ - it went down after I started eating again. I had acne breakouts all over the body, but it got clean up after while, also my tongue was coated in white from toxins, it got rid of it though. I stopped smelling like acetone too after a while and the best thing - I went to tests (two times) and it went back negative, two times for all infections which can be cultured. So as unreal as it seems - fasting and elixir of life are able to treat many illnesses. It even fixed my period ("starving" aka fasting should according to science stop period, in my case it brought it back and it was a very weak period). My nails became even stronger than before and the unwanted effect of getting rid of addiction on junk food came too. I always enjoyed chips and french fries and now I absolutely don't show any desire for these foods. It's like food is now just source of vitamins for me but nothing else anymore (I hate to even say this, but I can't even force myself to eat french fries before ate in kilos). For example today I woke up (went to sleep hungry) and now I feel no need for eating at all (and I planned to eat fries). Doesn't work like that anymore, it broke my addiction to junk food and over salty food (even though  I didn't want that, it was one of few things I could enjoy in life).

Even though I have to fix my flora now somehow, my body was able to get rid of infection just thanks to these two methods mentioned. I am 100% sure I would be still suffering if I didn't try this and maybe even death due to suicide. I will never undergo any chemical treatment which is harsh again - even If I got cancer I would never try to even undergo chemo and I will stick with this method. I believe 21 days of fasting can cure the majority of illnesses.

I want to emphasize another thing - I had positive thoughts about this therapy and I believed it's gonna work more than pills I was taking. You can't undergo any therapy without believing you gonna get desired results. Mind and body, both work together.

I will never give up on my life. No matter what. 

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Hello beloved foxies. To all loyal people reading my blog first I want to say that if you are healthy ( I know I made such post before, but...) APPRECIATE IT. Appreciate your health and what you have in life because some people in this world have painful and terminal disease about which you have never heard about and yet, we people still complain about our everyday bullshit. No, most problems are not even problems. I have never ever thought that ilness can change person this much. At times, I thought I'm about to die (due to insomnia from being in pain mostly, but also suicidal due to chronic pain).

We never know what can happen in life and we never look at health as something important, but - HEALTH is #1 priority. Without health, nothing in life makes sense. There is no such thing as 100% health but healthy is defined as such state in which we are able to do activities every day normally and adapt to life circumstances. When you are chronically sick these things become impossible. It's no use even saying that everything what I had in life - everything what I achieved, what I physically owned had no value for me anymore. I couldn't enjoy life AT ALL for four months. All I could think about was pain I feel due to infection and during night I was depressed or crying over it. So yes, basically that was me past months. People who don't know me and only see my fb/twitter would never assume of course. I was ironic as always, played games (even though first months couldn't because I couldn't even FOCUS cus of pain).

So yes, as I mentioned, ilness can change personality drastically. At times I felt like I am losing my mind, I was in such bad mental state. It was probably creating some  mental ilness I felt totally lost and detached from world (I recovered though). I was coinflip negative/ positive, because at times I wanted to believe that I'm getting healthy but then lost hope after seeing no results after so many treatments.

But... I have never completely gave up. Even after all these medical treatment failures, alternative failures I kept digging for other therapies and trying to solve this. I refused to accept this as my life and reality. In the end I can tell that I am recovering these days, I'm not completely back but I'm working on it so hard... it's way better then it was. So if you ever face such complicated situation - try to look after all solutions and there is 95% chance you will find it. It's easy to say don't give up, but in reality it's actually soooooo hard. Even though - you are here, on Earth (probably) given life, so you can't just easily give up on it. From now I will try to fight till the end. I will keep walking this path in life because I legit feel like I was given second chance in life.

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Hey guys! Long time no see. Probably my fault, I was busy with Uni, then playing League and stuffs like every ordinary person does. But then... 3 months ago my life went boom. And by boom I mean I got sick. I won't go to details, but currently, I am going through the hardest part of my life. I rarely talk to someone about this because I don't feel like it at all. I kinda got self - absorbed into my illness and had plenty of time during past months to think about life and everything.

It's just ironic. We people never value things and we take them for granted. I can tell to everyone that if you lose your health, quality of life is close to zero ( depending on the illness, but if you have chronic infection or pain it's just terrible). Daily activities are impossible, relationship with people is almost impossible too because you can't get your thought away from pain/illness/consequences. It's just never ending circle of pain affecting every inch of you. People, please - value what you have. Mainly things which you maybe don't realize - like your eyes, being infection free, that you have legs and arms. If you have these "things" then you are capable of achieving whatever you want. Stressing over other things became impossible for me last months due to physical pain. Didn't affect only my physical health, but also my mental state was very bad for the past three months. Now I'm trying fasting and alternative therapies because I had 8 treatments and nothing cleared my symptoms except alternative remedies which helped me to some extent.  Now I don't eat any solid food for 7 days (now on day 4). You can google fasting and books about it, there are plenty. It's very hard to be without food but I know it can trigger many healing processes in the body- normally 80% of energy is used just for digestion. It sucks to be hungry, it sucks to feel weak and having fever and aches because of toxins released into the body, but it's still worth it!!! Although I'm nowhere where I should be I'm really trying my hardest to get myself back. This illness taught me something very precious - even though I feel weak and want to give up through tears I still continue somehow fighting this. I just can't give up on my life, new goals, dreams. There is no way I will lose this all due to being sick. I refuse to give up my life to this and I will find the solution no matter what. So if you guys ever encounter something so terrible as I did - don't give up. Never give up no matter how bad is it with you. Even if you feel like you are about to die from physical/mental pain. I understand the mental pain, extreme physical pain and also suicidal thoughts. I understand it all. I was through extreme bullying during my childhood, then I didn't feel loved by my mother and had many health issues throughout life /but none of them major like this one. I understand suffering more than I look like. But giving up won't benefit anything, I want my body to force the healing process and to recognize the infection and heal itself. I wanna be the perfect being once again and I won't surrender even if I have to go through dead people to gain it back.

Funny fact is that even during these days when I'm still kinda sick, I still look like before. My appearance except losing like 10-11kg didn't change much. My advice for everyone who is going through something similar is to stop losing hope. I have coinflip days when I lose hope but I am trying to erase it. I believe there is a solution for things like this and that it gets better over time with all effort I am putting into this. My negative mindset was only worsening things past months so I am trying to fix and also trying Silva method and visualization ( can check on google too ;D). It's just cruel that some people have to go through rare illnesses and never-ending sufferings, although somewhere exists the solution - and we have to try to find it, no matter what. I believe that in the body is enough healing power to overcome almost every illness, even if illness doesn't make sense or whatever (mine doesn't make sense). So, in the end, I just wanna say - I value things way more than before. Never realized how can life be so bad without being healthy, how everything can become so useless and pointless in my eyes, how illness can steal all sparks I had in my eyes. But even though - I AM STILL FIGHTING. And I won't give up. I refuse to give up.

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Title is kinda tricky. It's mirroring my personality very well though (two sides, bright and dark) - I accepted some (not that important) things but also decided to not give up on other important things. This month has been very weird; I am kinda very self conscious about my mental state and I don't feel very happy at the moment. Maybe I worry too much about future? Maybe some of you who are still reading my half baked non active blog are going through something similar.

League of Legends and games have been always a big part of my life. Major time at high school (aka teenage years were literally just me playing World of Warcraft). No people. Of course, there were some people, but nothing significant. I don't know if I have ever told you here, but I didn't go to prom. Reasons? My classmates were total assholess (exceptions like 4people max). I didn't feel like spending money on something just because it's a "tradition". I don't need to be conformal to prove my "place" in society. I just don't care at all. And I actually think that if you ever feel like me (that u don't want to do something what is conformal and traditional like proms and other things) and you are just being forced to events, just don't go... do whatever you want instead. I went on guild raid and I don't regret. Somehow these days I just feel like games are not satisfying anymore and I don't know why. But I have some explanations which I will discuss below;

First - as I said I kinda worry about future. Everyone does. But it's kinda unlikely for me, I can force my mind go blank for a veeery long period of time. Never had problems with falling asleep and stuff; these days I kinda got fed up with exams ( I passed them by the way) and also my part time job and felt kinda forced to do thing and I HATE THAT. I hate when I can't do things I want and I HAVE or MUST do something instead.  I'm concerned about absolutely everything in my life. In the way that I have no idea what I want in the future, mostly; I am obsessed with aliens, forensic psychology, esports and esports psychology and also interested in other things I don't want to share right now (big plans kappa).

Second - I got my hair done in a hair studio by some FUCKING UNSKILLED hairdresser who completely messed up my hair. I'm so mad when I think about it - she literally made stairs on my hair (totally messed up layers of hair) and I had to go to my friend to fix it up ( she couldn't, it was THAT BAD, I have like hair on back side shorter and fronts are way longer ). I have to wait one month to get it cut to some cultured haircut. YES, you might say this is trivial problem, but no. Hair is something precious to me, you have to take good care of it and it's like crown of beauty and now it has been destroyed so I'm severly depressed. It will grow over time, but it messed up my mental state one day before exam and I got E. Because of hair. (Edit: it was a mistake, she changed it to C). Yes. That's how I am, never lucky. I might be 10% shallow person when I rethink what I just wrote. 

Third thing is that I have some health issues and I decided to reduce/quit refined sugar. I am a big lover of chips, french fries, ice cream and many unhealthy food in general. As many of you know, I don't eat meat, although I still don't eat healthy. These weeks I want to get more fit - get back to exercising and sticking with my healthy life style plan for incoming months. This is sixth day without refined sugar (I had two times little portion of cooked potatoes but shhh). I tried to exercise with Fitnessblender (14 days out of 30) and it made me feel more energized. My sugar addiction is slightly dissapearing, I don't feel any urges to eat anything unhealthy at this moment (I GAVE UP ON IDEA OF EATING IT BUT IT WAS HARD!!!)  I am including benefits of quitting refined sugar which concerned me to quit it:

1. Refined sugar is as addictive as cocaine. If you really don't want to slowly ruin your health and just weaken your immune system, it's a really good choice. I guess no one wants to be slave to something unhealthy drug-like (Like refined sugar).

2. Losing weight. This one is pretty attractive to me and any other person with weight struggles I guess. 

3. Inflammation in body will decrease. Yes baby, refined sugar is causing all sort of inflammation, from heart diseases to acne. 

4. Rates of cholestelor in blood will drop. 

5. Decreasing chance to get diabetes. 

7. Decreasing risk of cancer. Sugar spikes insuline to abnormally high levels. Insuline is one of the factor considered to be cause of cancer cells going on rampage.

8. No nutrions, no proteins, no fiber, no vitamins. Empty calories. You still feel hungry and craving for more. 

The conclusion I made from my experiences past weeks and possibly months is that whoever is reading this, don't give up easily on things which are very important for you. Things which define you, dreams you have, hopes you hold. Those abstract treasures are something what you can't just forget and throw it away. On the other side - stop bothering with things which are not that important and focus on your true goals, no matter what they are and no matter how hard it seems to achieve it. Don't let other people to tell you what you are supposed to do when you feel inside that this is the right thing to do. It's your life and your responsibility for it. You don't want to regret that you didn't try something what you dreamed of for a long time.

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